I am trapped within my truth …
my quiet storm
rolling in the deep
Spiritual Love
It hurts so bad…
Cultural Differences
Born in the same country
Born in the same year
We have the same color
We share the same love
We share the same wishful thinking
And yet
Every now and then
We clash because of
Cultural Differences
You can be so sensitive
I can be so sensitive
You are hurt
I am hurt
What now?
I don’t want to come to this point. It is impossible right now…
Until when…
Until when
Will I be
Always waiting
Until when
Will I pretend
I am okay
Even if you
Didn’t call
Until when
Will I cry
Silently and
Invisibly
Until when
Will my heart
Stop from breaking
Until when
Will I calm
My own heart
Until when
Will I wipe
My own tears
Until when
Will I wait
For you
To call me
To hold me
And never
Let me go
Until when…
My heart tells me this is the best and greatest feeling I have ever had. But my mind knows the difference between wanting what you can’t have and wanting what you shouldn’t want. And I shouldn’t want you.
one of these days…
one of these days
i will wake up
and you are no longer
occupying the biggest
space in my heart
one of these days
i will no longer
stare at my phone
waiting for a message
a call from you
one of these days
you will realize i am
the best that ever
came into your life
one of these days
i will realize you are
just a lesson learned
but until that
“one of these days”
i will just
wipe my tears
away…
mixed emotions
All these mixed feelings wrapped into one just because i haven’t heard from you for a day or two… fuck you!
SAD
MAD
CONFUSED
WORRIED
STRONG
WEAK
SUFFOCATED
FREE
LOVE
HATE
REGRETFUL
HOPEFUL
i am not sure if you are still good for me
for my heart, my mind, my spirit
when things are not right
and i don’t hear from you
it paralyzes me
i can’t move
i can’t breathe
i can’t think
who are you?
who the fuck are you?
why you have such control over
my whole being?
and the thing is you don’t
even know that.
my heart push you out several times
but at the same time its the same heart
that pulls you back in.
i don’t know what to do with you anymore.
i have let you go a few times
and prayed for signs and
keep praying for signs to show me
what to do with you
but you keep reappearing
when i am about to totally
give you up
i fucking hate you
i fucking love you
gosh, i miss you so much …
